The Ex….

Yesterday afternoon I bumped into my ex. The hot ex. I had errands at his work place that I had to honor. I knew there was a possibility we could meet up but I was keeping my fingers crossed we would not meet up.

I have not seen him in a while and I really did not know how I would feel or react around him. I believe what would make it awkward for me was the fact that I ended the relationship for reasons I will not disclose on this platform and since then we have not been in touch.I would not want to think about the number of times I wanted to call him or text him but I had to resist the urge to do so. It never is easy to let go, is it?

When I saw him I tried to keep my distance and I thought to myself thank heavens there are people around me . I kept myself busy by talking to the people around us so I could keep myself distracted from admiring his gorgeous bod and of course his smile.  It was challenging and I guess those few minutes were the moment of truth i was afraid of.

So being the gentleman he is, he waited for me to finish what I was doing and he approached me and gave me not just a hug but  THIS  hug that had me wanting to pinch myself, not because it was surreal well even if I had to describe it surreal would not be the word because it’s not my first time hugging him but it was that type of hug that had me thinking “why did I let you go?” . I don’t think there are words in my diction that can describe the warmth of his body on mine, his strong arms around me. I think there are ladies out there who know that type of hug I am talking about .

I am so glad I am single. I do not want to imagine what it would feel like to be in a relationship with someone right now and here I would be blogging about my ex. The hot ex. The one who makes me weak. The one whose voice lingered on mind for days. The one who knows his way around your heart,mind and YES your body!!

In every woman’s past is that hot ex.  The one you know is your weakness and it is hard to stay away from him. The one who sometimes even though you have moved on it seems as though you haven’t because for some reason or another you always bump into him or he just finds his way back into your life. In my case what made it hard is that he is such a decent human being. He was kind,respectful and genuine. When I was younger I would have called my ex boyfriend and told him how much I missed him and that I want him back but not anymore.

He is an ex for a reason and no matter how charming and attractive he is,he is my past and that is exactly where he should stay. Relationships are challenging because sometimes it’s not the other person you cannot trust. It is yourself.