Walking Away

As a Blogger there is so much inspiration for content and i never thought i would use my own personal story on the Blog but today i want to.. I have learnt to be honest with myself especially where matters of the heart are concerned.

So while others are celebrating this awesome day i just ended a relationship this morning. It was a long time coming and i just did not know how to end it. I am not sure what the fear was because i have been single before and being alone is not what scares me the most. The idea of not being able to give love and share love is what i fear.  It was going nowhere slowly and what pissed me off the most was that he was playing ignorant and i thought to myself why am i wasting my time??  Why can’t we learn to be honest with each other?. Surely when something is not working it’s not. You have a choice to work on it and if you don’t want to that should be okay too. At some point something ‘s gotta give. So in the name of love i just chose to walk away.

I have gone through so much in the last couple of years trying to build my business and get established and and i am at a point where i am still unstable and to have such drama in my life is really not worth it. Lately my attitude towards love is very easy. If it is working great and if it’s not GOODBYE. Walking away an choosing to be happy or to be in a better head space is so empowering. I am have not felt this kind of clarity in a long while and i am so happy.

In the past i would have been crying and i would be listening to sad love songs to help me heal and more often than not i would chase away the ones who had the potential to love me but thank heavens this is 2014 and i am a big girl now and saying goodbye is not hard any more. It’s his loss anyway (what we tell ourselves to make ourselves feel better)…ki ki ki…

So to celebrate being single and the fact that i love life i will be getting myself some chocolates, wine and some ice cream.

HAPPY VALENTINE’s DAY to me!!!